Thursday, October 21, 2010

God Creates Life-Recreates Us In The Process

Anyone who knows me knows that I am an open book, but this journey is very personal and therefor I want to be careful with how I approach sharing this. In April, Craig and I felt the Lord calling us to start a family; it's been 7 months and we are still seeking the Lord's will.

We knew that some would wonder why we were trying to have a child after only a year of marriage, but 10 years ago I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome aka PCOS. The basic physical effects are irregular or no cycles, lack of ovulation & weight gain. When Craig & I married in June 2009 we knew that due to this syndrome, conceiving a child would not be easy so we followed the Lord's calling to start trying early. Simply having the fact of a health problem can in no way prepare you for how it will effect you emotionally - both negatively & positively. But the most important thing we have learned thus far - God is good, always. He will "never leave you nor forsake you".

With the knowledge of my PCOS, we talked with my OBGYN in April about our options for conceiving a child. Below is the short version of what then followed:

May - started clomid (ovulation fertility drug) & it did not work
June - took a higher dose of clomid & again learned it did not work
July - took an even higher dose of clomid & again it did not work
August - again took more clomid, only to learn it again did not work. Also this month I had a hysterosalpinogram done at Baptist Women's Hospital in Memphis. This procedure was performed to make sure that my PCOS was the only issue we are dealing with.
Those results showed no other problems - Praise the Lord!
September - took yet another round of clomid with an added medication called metformin & this month my blood work finally showed that there was some advancement in my ovulating. We were thrilled - it was such a leap in the right direction after months of nothing. My OBGYN was honest with us this month, telling us that it would be best if she reffered us to a fertility specialist - a reproductive endocrinologist. 
October - we had our first consultation with this new doctor on the 1st. After our 4 hour appointment full of tests & answering questions, we felt very encouraged by what the doctor had to say and his plan of action. That day we were overwhelmed by the wisdom God grants to doctors. We know that it is an incredible blessing that He has placed this doctor in our life and we are utterly grateful to Him for providing us the means to attend that day. Sadly, even with this doctor's aggressive plan, an ultra sound last week did not give us the results we were hoping for. Due to my PCOS, even with the clomid, my ovaries are not able to produce a mature follicle that will release a healthy egg. We have been prescribed an at home shot that Craig will give to me as soon as the doctor can find the right medication combination that will produce a mature follicle. This shot will then help with the release of the egg. Obviously the many rounds of clomid has not helped, so the doctor has decided to finally take me off of that medication and start a new kind. Next week I will start a fertility drug called letrozole. 2 weeks after starting this drug, I will have an ultra sound to look for a mature follicle. If there is one, I will take the shot at home (I'm actually a wimp so Craig will have to give it to me).

This month has been the hardest yet. Something about going to a fertility specialist hits you harder then just going to an OBGYN. Craig & I have really felt "reality" this month! We are so grateful for our close friends & family who have shared in this journey thus far. Their support and prayers have meant the world to us. And as we move into what seems to be a deeper chapter of this book with this new doctor, we covet your prayers. Thank you for taking the time to read this and thank you for loving us!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

"Today, I thee wed"

On Saturday, I watched my sister, Emily, stand before her family & friends as she married Mr. Joel Larsgaard. I had the joy of being her Matron of Honor - what a wonderful way to show my love and support to her. Joel & Emily desired for their wedding to be Christ centered and worshipful and that it was! As a congregation we sang "Come Thou Fount Of Every Blessing" & "Be Thou My Vision". Words cannot describe how beautiful the view I had as I watched Emily & Joel worship thru song - giving praise to the one who brought them together and taught them how to love.
"Today, I thee wed"

 I of course cried thru the whole thing. I was overwhelmed with God's faithfulness in the lives of both my sister & I. Having come from broken families that have been since redeemed thru the faithfulness of God's grace - watching a sweet man of God vow his life to my sister and my sister to him, well I could not hold in my emotion. At the rehearsal dinner, I spoke of the redemption I experience thru my relationship with my sister. "Technically" we are step-sisters but from the day her dad married my mom (1/12/03) she and I have shared the most special bond that has led us to never utter the words step-sister. For the first 18 years of my life I never thought that I needed a sister or really even wanted a sister. I couldn't have imagined how the Lord would transform my life thru giving me Emily as a sister. You know the phrase, "You never knew what you had till it's gone"? Well in the case of my sister..."I never knew what I was missing till I had it!" I am so grateful to the Lord for the last 7 years we have spent sharing our lives  and growing as sisters together. 

"In thee my soul shall own combined the sister & the friend"

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

The Stand

I'm loving this song these days!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Who Are Craig & Missy Daniel?

We are servants of Jesus Christ. Craig & I are humbled daily by God's continuous grace in our lives and so find no greater joy then offering Him our whole lives. My desire for this blog is to simply glorify my Lord & Savior thru sharing with you how he works & moves in my life and the life of my sweet husband. I know no better way to express our heart for Jesus then thru scripture and song.
So I want to share with you the scripture read and songs sang at our wedding.

Hebrews 4:14-16

Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

2 Corinthians 5:17-21

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless Babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save

Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live, I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory
Sins curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From a life?s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man
Could ever pluck me from His hand
Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand

How Deep The Father's Love For Us

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocing voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that helf Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I knoww that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast inJesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom